the 7th month

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egg-chan


Happy 7th month..bii

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Dear

It's really hard for me to write this post
This is really how I feel, no hide and seek
Just want u to know

I found that we really having problems on communications or whatever

I clearly know its my fault
This used to happen in my previous relationship

you wan to be urself, in ur way
i wan too

it's just like compromise is needed
i really dunno how to convey to u by voice

face to face or thru voice it's not very possible for me to say things out like this to u
but i just really need ur faith
i don wan u doubt me

for my context i think ur doubtness (or joke, if u define it tat way) is very unpleasant for me
everytime u say me 'angry again' i really feel very bad
or else if i ask u not to do this, not to do tat, for ur good sake, but u just think u r correct in ur way

ok fine, we r from different background, different thinking families

to avoid argument, some sort of synchronisation or understanding is really necessary

'it's tiring to listen to ur teachings everyday'

yes, i got a lot of my own opinion
yes, insignificantly i might be too superior like ego man

old ways cant work with new times, new conditions

if changes is necessary, for good sake, i will try and see

i don wan things turn out to be worse, or unrestorable

rmb i told u the reason y i said u r not like the usual '88?
don make me change my mind

i admit i really don understand wat girl/woman want, like u said
but relationship, or love, is about the both

everything is about compromise
blame no one

i'm not as emotional when it comes to solving things or to pursueing something
rationally i will hv a lot of self-standard for myself, something like high expectation

tat makes me don like this, don like tat
poor PR

for me, i think love 'on mouth' doesnt worth a cent
i mean jsut everyday say 'i love u'
but not meaning it or just due to some regural self-agreement
no point, u also understand

must not everyday to hv good mood or great topics to share with
don think routine chat is a good way to maintain a LDR

my experience told me things will only change somedays as time passes

sometimes it really struggle, when u ask me 'nothing to say'?
thr is really time tat i got nothing to say or to share
should i force my self to gorek something out and tell u?
is this the way it should be? or?

recently our debates or arguments really just surrounding stupid little things
its really not the problem who wins ok? i'm really ok with it
but the real thing is, u understand wat is the point we argue or not?
just for ur face? or just for fun? or just a joke? or we just cant get compromise?

suddenly when i think about it halfway during argument, i will just think, ok let it be
pointless to continue, things should not go this way

I really hope for change, change better in between us.
Routine will drive people away

i need to admit that there r many aspects of u that i not really agree or satisfy
but u cannot deny my feeling eventhough i'm not truly understand u 7months ago.
its independant, not related.

of course u should not doubt my feeling towards u
tat's a thing more confirm than the fact tat sunrise from east side

lots more to share
but dunno how to continue

moreover i'm hungry
need to cook now
and bath later

a post to express my feelings towards you

hello baby , how is ur sleep?
just sent u the sms , hope u have a good sleep , i have a.. so so sleep , still sleepy now. :)

baby ar.. my heart is full of u..
i hope the time fly faster, cant wait to see you ,
i wan to touch ur face hold ur hands look into your eyes.

no matter wat , remember i'm with you , i will always miss u , keep u in my heart , store u in my brain, u are the only one who attracted me the most , smile for you , happy for you , sad for you, exciting for you, most importantly, live for you too.

of course live for u is not a burden or stress for u , just a msg to convey that how much i love you , how much i can do for u.. how much i wish to be wif u, how long i hope the relationship will be. endless road, is the journey i wan to walk along with you . love u , infinity. love you, eternally.

Finally can online post

Say hello to mummy!

ily

致亲爱的，
在你前往银行的路途中，我在想念你，所以，给你写了封blog.
刚刚冲完凉，头发还湿。刚刚练完明天要present的稿。。
距离你离开的那段日子已经有好些时候了，老实说，你并没有明确的告诉我你是否满意现状，
比如说，你觉得德国不错，可是，快乐吗？在求学的当儿，有享受生活吗？
那里的人和文化呢？相处得来吗？每天吃自己做的早午晚餐，即使难吃也得哽下去会辛苦吗？
深夜里会惊醒吗？会深深想念家人吗？离开了一段日子，对我的感觉依然深厚吗？

我暂时安好，待presentation完后，是时候温习功课了。
这个星期六将会有french speaking test, 将会和一个越南女子进行对话。
至于uncle讲要装电话，他告诉我contract要一年，可是，明年我4月会走，其余的月份要还多三十多块，值得吗？想听你怎么说。

日子久了，对你的思念不能说是种习惯，但是，早已把你驻在心里。
不管你对我好不好，不管你是否心情不好对我态度欠佳，不管你对我有任何不满，或是你的态度让我生气心伤，我依然喜欢你，即使和你有不愉快的通话，下一秒，就想念你，就想和你有说不完的电话。可是，我们的话题好似少了好多好多，是，我知道的电话费在作祟，可是每次讲电话，我们多半不都沉默等对方说话，甚至天天得话题就是吃什么去那里好不好累不累。
想念019?我也是。
想念m'sai时可以无限量通话？我也是。
想念我躺在你怀里？我也是。
想念你轻扶我的脸轻轻的亲吻我？我也是。

亲爱的，三个字，
i。l。y ：）

kissing moment

Bii and Dear in pet society

So so post

Today is just so so so.
Since the day the new MacBook lauched, I just keep struggling.
Okay just to told you only,
I already ordered it.
Tomorrow will go to bank to transfer the money.

Thanks to ur advice
add on to my diminishing confidence

Actually the promotion is only worth if i buy the macbook along with an ipod
so i choose the new ipod touch and i did something special on it.
its a secret now and i only reveal it to u when i got it, or when we meet, coz it means a lot to us.

sure do miss u alot
yesterday trip is too rush and time is pack

moreover my mood was just so so these few days
maybe then my attitude in the phone was not good
sorry dear i apologize

but then there r no excuse to be bad to my dearling!

Love u Dear

Cheer up always and take things as easy as possible

i miss my baby, he is my man.

Dear baby, i am in shuk yi place now, yie's turn to shower now.
hmm.. nothing update recently after the assignment going to be done (left presentation)
i just wan to enjoy when i am not stress.
just to share u something, i mean, just to be frank., i am so broke this month which i dun really know where the money goes to. but nvm, i can cope wif it, coz i got saving
how r u recently?
i miss u so much, miss the time u siak me , miss the time u kacau me on the phone miss the time u love me like never b4..:)
how is ur trip? nice?? got girls along?should be la right??
hmm.. girls~
why last nite u asked me about the scarf? is it become very ugly now??
i am so sleepy, din really buy things today , only spent for eat.
zhang xiao xian's new two books haven arrive yet which i have been waiting for a month a go, i think.
how is ur studies over there??
when do u guys have test or mid term ?
baby u enjoy ur life over there ?
tell me tell me..

last but not least , goodnight my love , i miss u dearly deeply.

dear baby..

baby, read this carefully . i read it on board when i was going back to sdk during hari raya period.

dun complain i din scan k :)

coz i am rushing for my assignment in yie's side of bed and my printer is in my side, plus, there is so many things on my printer.

i am still doing the advertisement, wan me to show u here ? but i dun feel like bringing all those sh*t to our lovely calm and warm blog wo :p send u email la if u wan

last night got ppl talked wif me a while then hang up eh.. it's like a while then ok la ok la.. goodnight darling.. so rush to hang up :( even tho i am sleeping i also know u're rushing..

but luckily, i got 4 msg when i was sleeping.. how sweet :*

talked phone with mum and my bro thingy makes me cried so hard, plus i am stress for the assignment, so all tears rolling down and feelings expose in once..

mum asked me to stop study NOW and continue it whenever i wan since i am not happy in here, she said all those author that she read their novels study stop play study.. they take few courses to study not taking degree or diploma one. and they have great life.

but after her husband dead, she commit suicide also , the author i mean.

mum called my aunt and tell her my situation, request my aunt go help me pray and burn the 'fu' for me. i just wan a better life and pass my exam, i cant find my self-identity in this college with all these friends, i sobbed.

mum then asked me : u changed a lot this semester, you were not like that lasttime, is ah loon one of the reason that make u become like this? * pushing myself to archieve better grade she means.

i said this is not the main reason, he is one of very main reason and my effort ,courage to study i admit. then my mum said ignore about how will people see me and dun put too much pressure on myself as i have a charming bf.

then my aunt also called and asked me stop study if really suffer. they think it's meaningless to cry for class. she is a high school teacher i have tomention :)

then i said the reason i cried is just to release myself. i will continue my study untill i really cannot stand even a second. i said thanks to them as i knowi still have a back stage if i wan to turn back. i feel so glad to have them really. and of course u baby.

mum said forget about diploma forget about degree forget about how my dad wish to have a clever children and forget about how u will think about me. she said come back and i will hand the company to you.

anuty said go kk or sdk do the broadcaster la, dun need to do in kl, still broadcaster, still archieved ur dream ! then now i remember the RTM in kk qualification is just SPM.

then i was thinking to have my degree there, kk inti or curtin sarawak.

DEGREE, hmmpm, seems far..

baby, how do u think if i dun continue my degree??

does anyone will look down on me ?

should i care about how people think??

mum said

come back la, whole family together,

and said some of the degree student can earn 2000 in a month only..

aunt say, dun care about others, as long as you happy.

baby, will u still stand by me and support me??

dun worry, i will try my very best, u know gar :)

如隔三秋兮

不想睡觉，不想看戏，不想读书，不想想课业的繁重，不想动，不想说话，不想哭，不想笑，
只想坐在椅子上听音乐，和你上网聊天，望着你寄来的明信片，痴痴地想念你。

=)

Mysterious gift for my dear

spotted in 2 shopping centers!

Miss u alot

Dear, wat happen to your internet?

y everytime i cant online and chat with u?

my line not good here

cant attach photo to blog

i really miss u so much

but y everytime i can online and cant meet u?

sleepiness night with brain-full of u.

Try not to remember the days you have been left,
as i know time will not fly as fast as i want it to.

baby, i miss u so much ,
everytime i look at the pictures that you sent to us in Germany,
i really feel like be by urside accompany you , share every single little things in ur life.

when you tell me u shopped for food, when u tell me u go car exhibition, i know i might not have the big interest, but when things are related to u, it will have its interesting part to attract me. and i know u will surely be very patient and explain every little single things to me and i am sure u will ask : u sure wan to know meh? :)

yes i do. everything that related to you, yes i do.

i wan to take care of you when u get flu, i wan to wake up in the middle of night and touch ur forehead see whether its hot, i wan to hug you to sleep even tho its a single bed, i wan to make u breakfast and cook lunch for u to school, i wan to prepare the dinner ingredient and wait u come back from school and we cook together, i wan to accompany u when u're revising ur notes, i wan to tell u story to make u sleep and sing u song to get u into dream, i wan to kiss u goodnight in every night and kiss goodbye b4 u go to school.

i know, it seems i'm sticky and rely on u, but i just want to..

be by ur side, is where i want to be!

i hope u really know how much i miss u and how much u mean to me.

i hope we will not break the promises and let me kiss u goodnight and goodmorning in every single day for rest of ur life..

babii, I Love You really.

:*

dear baby. dear baby dear babii dear babii.. i love u the most wo, u know that ??
:)
baby ar.. i miss u..

:)

Hello papa :D

Flu affected from Msia to Germany?

Just the night when I said I come germany no sick then the next day get flu
dunno is too hot gas or really get cold

feel better now but still running nose

i really don like u skip my questions

not important? u don think to answer?
then y i ask?

i really cant accept ur answer...

really admit tat we lack of communication

but when u sms also lazy to use heart to answer
wat can u say more?

i told u tat u can sms to my 014 with just 1 sen
u can send watever u wan to me, wat u think, wat u feel

but u didnt really do tat much, and at the end said u cant at the 1st hand share with me wat happen to u

LDR sure problems will pile up

at least listen to wat i say and don just act upon ur own will

...

3 days insomnia.

dear baby,
it has been a while.
i din really can get online in my room of the side.
u din reply my msg after u telling me i keep skipping ur questions
and this is already happened since the day we together. hmpm, ppl complained dy :P

not to skip the questions purposely, maybe i judt dun think that is interesting or important to tell, so i just read ur msg and reply u by wat i am thinking.

how is ur flu? i just left the phlegm and cough, quite bad still.

the marks of the assignment that i mentioned yesterday are quite bad for the whole class except for those two who get 13 and 11 out of 15. mrs said she will give everyone of us 2.5 points extra credit . that considered a good news of course.
one mark might save us leh maybe

and baby i tot u say u will online?
will take a nap soon, three days insomnia, cant imagine how could that be.

i will give out the 25 sets of questionaires of the buckle up tonite and have to be done by tonite too. will go to walk around in 17th floor later, targeted audience are teenagers.

i feel quite float and unstable now. really wanna go for nap liao. love u baby. online ma still?? if yes, sms me or call me k ? will wake up for u and just you :)

EMMUACKS!

Miss you post

Dear,

wonder whr r u now, on the way home?

next wednesday i will come to online again

miss u alot, worry about ur ill

drink more water and take medicine ya

love u! emmuackss

TY bears for sell at those private garage sale

Happy 6 months (belated)

Dear

Happy 6 months/half year relationship (belated greeting)

So I'm really glad that you enjoy your time with your family members and de-stress really.

I miss you really! really really really

and more, I LOVE YOU my dearest dear dearling darling

EMMUACKSSS!!!!!