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Dear

It's really hard for me to write this post
This is really how I feel, no hide and seek
Just want u to know

I found that we really having problems on communications or whatever

I clearly know its my fault
This used to happen in my previous relationship

you wan to be urself, in ur way
i wan too

it's just like compromise is needed
i really dunno how to convey to u by voice

face to face or thru voice it's not very possible for me to say things out like this to u
but i just really need ur faith
i don wan u doubt me

for my context i think ur doubtness (or joke, if u define it tat way) is very unpleasant for me
everytime u say me 'angry again' i really feel very bad
or else if i ask u not to do this, not to do tat, for ur good sake, but u just think u r correct in ur way

ok fine, we r from different background, different thinking families

to avoid argument, some sort of synchronisation or understanding is really necessary

'it's tiring to listen to ur teachings everyday'

yes, i got a lot of my own opinion
yes, insignificantly i might be too superior like ego man

old ways cant work with new times, new conditions

if changes is necessary, for good sake, i will try and see

i don wan things turn out to be worse, or unrestorable

rmb i told u the reason y i said u r not like the usual '88?
don make me change my mind

i admit i really don understand wat girl/woman want, like u said
but relationship, or love, is about the both

everything is about compromise
blame no one

i'm not as emotional when it comes to solving things or to pursueing something
rationally i will hv a lot of self-standard for myself, something like high expectation

tat makes me don like this, don like tat
poor PR

for me, i think love 'on mouth' doesnt worth a cent
i mean jsut everyday say 'i love u'
but not meaning it or just due to some regural self-agreement
no point, u also understand

must not everyday to hv good mood or great topics to share with
don think routine chat is a good way to maintain a LDR

my experience told me things will only change somedays as time passes

sometimes it really struggle, when u ask me 'nothing to say'?
thr is really time tat i got nothing to say or to share
should i force my self to gorek something out and tell u?
is this the way it should be? or?

recently our debates or arguments really just surrounding stupid little things
its really not the problem who wins ok? i'm really ok with it
but the real thing is, u understand wat is the point we argue or not?
just for ur face? or just for fun? or just a joke? or we just cant get compromise?

suddenly when i think about it halfway during argument, i will just think, ok let it be
pointless to continue, things should not go this way

I really hope for change, change better in between us.
Routine will drive people away

i need to admit that there r many aspects of u that i not really agree or satisfy
but u cannot deny my feeling eventhough i'm not truly understand u 7months ago.
its independant, not related.

of course u should not doubt my feeling towards u
tat's a thing more confirm than the fact tat sunrise from east side

lots more to share
but dunno how to continue

moreover i'm hungry
need to cook now
and bath later