dear baby..

baby, read this carefully . i read it on board when i was going back to sdk during hari raya period.

dun complain i din scan k :)

coz i am rushing for my assignment in yie's side of bed and my printer is in my side, plus, there is so many things on my printer.

i am still doing the advertisement, wan me to show u here ? but i dun feel like bringing all those sh*t to our lovely calm and warm blog wo :p send u email la if u wan

last night got ppl talked wif me a while then hang up eh.. it's like a while then ok la ok la.. goodnight darling.. so rush to hang up :( even tho i am sleeping i also know u're rushing..

but luckily, i got 4 msg when i was sleeping.. how sweet :*

talked phone with mum and my bro thingy makes me cried so hard, plus i am stress for the assignment, so all tears rolling down and feelings expose in once..

mum asked me to stop study NOW and continue it whenever i wan since i am not happy in here, she said all those author that she read their novels study stop play study.. they take few courses to study not taking degree or diploma one. and they have great life.

but after her husband dead, she commit suicide also , the author i mean.

mum called my aunt and tell her my situation, request my aunt go help me pray and burn the 'fu' for me. i just wan a better life and pass my exam, i cant find my self-identity in this college with all these friends, i sobbed.

mum then asked me : u changed a lot this semester, you were not like that lasttime, is ah loon one of the reason that make u become like this? * pushing myself to archieve better grade she means.

i said this is not the main reason, he is one of very main reason and my effort ,courage to study i admit. then my mum said ignore about how will people see me and dun put too much pressure on myself as i have a charming bf.

then my aunt also called and asked me stop study if really suffer. they think it's meaningless to cry for class. she is a high school teacher i have tomention :)

then i said the reason i cried is just to release myself. i will continue my study untill i really cannot stand even a second. i said thanks to them as i knowi still have a back stage if i wan to turn back. i feel so glad to have them really. and of course u baby.

mum said forget about diploma forget about degree forget about how my dad wish to have a clever children and forget about how u will think about me. she said come back and i will hand the company to you.

anuty said go kk or sdk do the broadcaster la, dun need to do in kl, still broadcaster, still archieved ur dream ! then now i remember the RTM in kk qualification is just SPM.

then i was thinking to have my degree there, kk inti or curtin sarawak.

DEGREE, hmmpm, seems far..

baby, how do u think if i dun continue my degree??

does anyone will look down on me ?

should i care about how people think??

mum said

come back la, whole family together,

and said some of the degree student can earn 2000 in a month only..

aunt say, dun care about others, as long as you happy.

baby, will u still stand by me and support me??

dun worry, i will try my very best, u know gar :)